risingwinds | Twenty-Seventh Shooting Star

[It's been about four months now since he had his talk with Lea. Most of that time he's spent trying to keep his spirits high. Socializing with friends, going on with his day-to-day routines.

But a recent talk with Masaomi and the whole lantern ceremony a few weeks back smacked him in the face and brought those words back into the forefront of his mind. The fact is, his future's far from pleasant. All signs point to one massive failure for him and his friends.

So here he is, journal in his lap. Maybe it's time to finally air those thoughts.]

So, um... I know at least a couple of you guys have bumped into people from the past or the future, but have you ever been hit with some really bad news? Like, say you had this goal to save a friend. Keep 'em from losing themselves, but it turns out you failed. That friend doesn't just lose themselves: they become somebody else's vessel.

If something like that did happen, what'd you do? 'Cause for me, knowing really hasn't helped. I'm stuck with the fact that I couldn't save my two best friends, and when I get back, I'll probably forget that I ever found out.

I just hate feeling so helpless.

[There, he got that off his chest. That's the first step.]

But it got me thinking about something else, too. Say we find a way to get back home without forgetting everything. Do you think it'd be wrong to try and change that future? Because I feel like I should so that my friends don't end up suffering, but doing something like that means changing the futures for everyone else, doesn't it? And I dunno if that's really fair.

[Sigh. What a mess.]

I dunno. It's all way too complicated. Makes me wish they were here now so I could ask them about it.

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Well... [ hoo boy ] of course. I don't... think things turn out that well for me, back home.

Then you should do whatever you can to make sure they do. I don't want anything bad to happen to you!

[Ven doesn't care what the circumstances are. No way would he let one of his friends suffer, if given the choice.]

I probably do that anyway, but... yeah. Though I guess it would be easier if I knew exactly what happens rather than just... what little I've gathered.

You ever thought about asking Riku? If anyone would know, it's probably him.

[But then, Ven suspects that would be treading in very uneasy territory for Kohan. Poor guy...]

Yeah. And I've decided I won't.

[ That... might be said with a bit more force to his voice than Ven is used to hearing from Kohan. He is kind of sort of very touchy about Riku having gone and done so much back home and getting a keyblade and mumble grumble.

And if it does turn out his suspicions from what Axel let slip are true, he doesn't want Riku of all people to be the one telling him for sure. ]

But... if I get to stay here, it won't ever matter anyway.

[Briefly, Ven considers asking why, but Kohan's tone of voice silences any questions he may have. Ultimately, it's Kohan's choice. Who's Ven to question it? Sometimes people just don't feel comfortable asking for others' help or guidance, and given his rocky relationship with Riku, it's no real surprise.

Besides, Kohan's got a point. As long as they're in Luceti, it's a moot point.]

So you wanna stay here, no matter what?

I... guess I can't really say "no matter what", but... as things are, I'm... much happier here, than I was back home. And I... There's not much that I really want to get back to, right now.

[ Namine being about the only thing that comes to mind. ]

I know it's probably not the same for you, though.

I dunno...

[He blows out some air, hesitating before he continues.]

I'm kinda torn, you know? I don't wanna leave my friends behind, but there's all this stuff to take care of back home, even if... Well, even if it does go south in the end.

That... must be rough. Even if you had a choice, not knowing which you'd choose. Guess it's better than only wanting to go home.

I can understand the people who do wanna leave, but I feel like it's just too complicated to turn my back on everybody. The friendships I have here matter just as much as the ones back home. I don't wanna lose 'em...

Do you ever think... people just try not to get close to anyone here?

[ Well the answer is yes because that was Kohan for a little while but hey he wants to see what Ven says. ]

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